How am I dealing with it ?

Well Boy I haven't been here for a bit as you know but you also know you are in my Thoughts and Heart forever I still miss you so much but I know you are always close Missi has settled in well and she is so much better and so Happy now she is in no more pain as you know she had to have an Operation I still miss your antics, your cute happy little Face, arguing with you (People who don't know you will not know what I mean lol) you always having the last Word, you being you and I always will I am dealing a bit better and I think it will always feel like part of me has gone with you ........ I love you I miss you sweet Boy but you will always be in my heart and here with me

Not to good at the moment, I am wondering why he had to go ................I have lost many Pets over the years and I loved them all dearly, but Gissi came to me when I needed picking up ..........when I needed to be distracted from what was happening, with Gissi I was as I had to teach the little Man that Life is good for him now he had come to me, he made me laugh, he made me cry and he always fought and came through 
With Gissi gone some of me is missing ..........3 weeks before Gissi's passing we got Missi who we rescued and they where just getting used to each other, and she helps me and I love her ..........but the pain for Gissi is still there, it is hurting, tears flow I miss him and I am lost 
Gissi you will always be in my heart Baby I love you my handsome Boy always